Bram was sick last week.
Hubby and I are sick now, but we're slowly recovering.
It's the kind of sick where you alternate between burning hot and freezing cold. The kind of sick where you can't even keep ice chips down and your stomach cramps and burns with the bile it's trying to forcefully eject from your system. It isn't fun.
I was surprised by my thoughts during the wee hours of the morning when I was praying for mercy. So, what was I thinking other than "Oh please, oh please, oh please, oh please be with me. Oh please, oh please, oh please."
I thought "I'm weak. I can't hack it. I want more kids but I can't handle a stomach virus? I don't think I'm strong enough to handle morning sickness and another labor."
Is it just me? Do you ever think things like this? I doubt we'll have more kids, but I hope. In fact I'd like to have another and adopt a few too. Then something like this happens and I wonder if I'd ever have the strength to do it.
But it's been about 24 hours and I'm finally able to keep ice chips down. So I'll just revel in that victory.
Sometimes we just have to rejoice in the little victories! God will show you when the time is right for more children. You just worry about getting better ;)
ReplyDeleteSending 'well' thoughts and prayers your way!
ReplyDeleteI do think weird things like that too, dear strange sister.
ReplyDeleteBlessings, health, and favor be yours today.
Janet
Yes! Any time we are all sick with something, or someone gets hurt really bad, I think "I can't handle more, just can't" but then we all get well and the sun shines again and I make grand plans with lots of kids and a bigger van and ... then we get sick again.
ReplyDeleteHope you all get well soon. Ask your doctor for a Rx for an anti nausea medication like phenergan or zofran. It'll make you sleep but the puking will stop.
No fun! Hope you're feeling better soon.
ReplyDeleteOK, I could really do without the visual here. ;) Sorry you've been so sick in your family. I finally got to the point where I felt like I could handle having another baby and my youngest decided to go through a sensory defensive streak where she can't stand to wear clothes. We have made so much therapy progress with my middle one and now this with my youngest. I really don't know if I could handle another, to be honest. But I know God's mercies are new each day and He will walk with me through whatever trials we have. Sometimes I wish and pray for more joy, though. It seems like every day has trials and I just want it to be easy for a while, know what I mean?
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you. That is not a nice thing to go through. I feel so pathetic, but a 'bug' is my nightmare. Thankfully, none in our family has had it for years, but I get so paranoid - if one gets it, I wash hands, and scrub and disinfect like a madwoman!
ReplyDeleteWhen you're ill, it's very hard to pray. God is so gracious, and he upholds us, when all we can say is, 'Please Lord, please.....please'
I'm praying for you!
ReplyDelete~Jennifer
I know what you mean! Everytime my kiddo's get sick, I think "No more, no more!!" Sometimes I think that when I look at my never-ending laundry pile...Then the little one coo's at me and the others say I'm the greatest mom ever and I start dreaming of more babies! Awwww.....
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